Wait for the right time.

I don't know what is happening to me, but i'm sick of bear my family, specially my mother.

She criticizes the way i dress, the way i comb my hair.... looks like everything i do is wrong. 

Right now i'm closed in my room trying to study Hitler and nazism. It's a sunny morning  and i'm closed in my room... great... I'm used to study in the afternoon (so i'm doing nothing, well writing here ), and i'm just thinking in all the things i have to hear about me at home. Most of them aren't bad, but i can't handle it. Why don't they let me do MY things MY way.! The only way to stop this is leaving home. Lately i've been thinking a lot about this. Leaving home and never come back. I would really like to go  to the USA, a lot of people tell me that i should be born in america, but i'm spanish. The problem is that i'm only 16 and i can't leave home now, i'll have to wait... Another problem is that i'm "afraid"  of talking to my mother about how i feel, you know my problem with insecurity...

The only person who understands me is my father. We have never talked a lot together, but now i'm getting used to it. Last week i told him about my idea of being an actor, and he totally understood me, and that is great.

Thank you Paula Quilez for listening to me.

Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw&ob=av2e

LOSER

I feel like a loser. Yes, LIKE A LOSER.

I've always tried to be known at school, but now i realize i'm as loser as everyone is. When i was a little bit younger, a lot of people judged me because i only had girl friends, and i still have them. A lot of boys said i was a gay, faggot and all the possible synonyms. This has made me stronger, but I've had very bad moments at school. Thank god of my friends, they helped me a lot. They are sometimes even better than my family. When I have a problem i just have to call my best friend and she makes all my problems disappear. I appreciate her a lot. 

Now a days i still feel like a loser. Couple days ago i met a friend and we took some pictures at the beach. I upload them on facebook but i had to custom my privacy to hide the pictures from my family. I know they will criticize me if they see the pictures. I don't know why i feel insecure about myself. I like the pictures and i'm not embarrassed to show them to people, but with my family its different, i feel insecure and i don't like it. 

I thought i was someone, but i'm just an insecure loser who is afraid of showing himself to his family. Maybe i sometimes look weird, but i'm not gay. And i like the way i am

Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Jd9dfn0Fgc

CAMERON MITHCELL is the one who inspired me for this post and made me see who i am. Thank You.

Not a Good Beginning.

Hey someone!

I'm very excited about this blog and this idea. =) Here goes my first post !

This title shows all i want to say. If you have read the introduction, you probably know i love Glee. Glee inspires me a lot. I'm always listening to its music, following the actors on twitter... The point is, today I've been talking with some friends about me and my "glee disease" and i told them about my idea of being an actor. It couldn't be worse. After ruin my hope about this, a girl said, get ready: Well almost all the actors are hot so you should go to a plastic surgeon... This was obviously a joke, but it felt really bad to me. I of course know i'm not hot at all, but... I don't know, it just felt bad. I have to say that other people, real FRIENDS, supported me.

This is it for today !

In every post i'll try to add a link or a name of a song which i think that fits with the post.

Today is : Born This Way (i'm a big fan of lady gaga too) I think this song is perfect for today. I know i'm not a hot guy, but i like myself and i think this is very important.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wV1FrqwZyKw&ob=av2e